Growth

It's amazing to me how much one can grow in six months, how much you can learn about life, about friendship, about yourself. Six months ago I was a puppy dog following this thing around. I let this thing control my every move, thought, emotion. Then I woke up one day and realized that no one, no thing should have that much control over my life.
Looking at my friend's relationships it is hard for me to let them make the same mistakes that I made. It's so important to have your own life, own opinions, own passions, own dreams. What are you living for if you don't have these things?

Take me as I am

All my life, people have been trying to change me. I'm too skinny, I'm too happy, I don't go out enough, I laugh too much, I'm weird, I study too much. People have tried to change all of these things about me. But can't you be happy with me the way that I am. Can't you just be with me because of the person I am, not the person I could be. Granted I have things about myself that I know that I need to change. I'm stressed out,a perfectionist, I am generally too nice and I take my stress out on the people I love. I am taking steps to change these things but until then, can you not just take me the way that I am. I dont like rolercosters, I'm a goody-two-shoes and I like getting all A's. Take me as I am, all my fears, failures, hopes, dreams, wrongs, rights, ups, downs, can't you just love me for me?

Whats with the engagements?

I am so sick of these twenty-something girls that I know getting engaged and married. WHAT ARE YOU THINKING? I will admit, I was one of those girls, and I almost made that mistake. Yes, that mistake. I have since learned that you have no idea who you are when you are twenty years old, nor do you know what you are looking for in a partner. I dated someone for five years and I certainly did not know the adult man, I only knew the little boy. Once he became the adult, I didn't like him anymore. We didn't have anything in common and his values and morals were completely different. So what is it with all this engagement bullshit? I say live your life. Have fun, be independent, buy those ridiculously expensive shoes that you want, make out with lots of people, make mistakes and have regrets. Stop thinking so much about the future and live in the here and now. You can get married when you are older but you can not live your twenties again.